Perhaps one of the most disturbing elements of the scenario:
In every version of my current situation, the torment I feel has been self-inflicted.
Indirectly: I came up with the idea to make me suffer as part of the plan. Someone liked my idea and is in fact doing exactly that.
Directly: I came up with the idea to make me suffer as part of the plan. Nobody liked my idea and I have falsely seen patterns indicating the plan was in motion.
No matter what, it is my own doing…